just being in that one on one situation is extremely traumatic no matter who it is
anyways feel really lightheaded
gonna fainti thin
Iāve had therapists be quiet while I speaking, and take their time to formulate their thoughts and words.
Iām not sure if thatās what you meant, but I do know that the good ones tend to spend a long time taking in the clientās words, and then spend time carefully saying their opinions
going into a silent room with cold walls and furniture and telling some random person about your deepest mechanations is uh. Hard. especially the first time.
the closest room ive been in like it before is the principalās office
if that makes sense
yeah
I donāt think good therapists want a person feeling this way, or want them feeling like they are required to share deep feelings on a first visit.
I think clients often psych themselves up or down prior to a therapy visit, but the therapist is often open with a client taking their time and growing a level of comfort with the therapist before talking about personal things
Itās hard for therapy to go well when the client has preconceived notions and worrisome feelings about what the experience will be.
This is what the better therapists are good at breaking down and getting past
oh yeah its a similar experience. except a therapist at least has significantly less malice towards you. theres still kind of. an aura of judgement in the room though
heart beating too fas/ i think im gonna faint even more
im a traumatised girl
they are. but you know you have to. at some point. i find that uncertainty personally to be worse,
This is why Iāve shared my entire mental health on the internet, and openly discussed my deepest thoughts.
I got used to living in a judgment filled world
alright Ive got to get working out, too much internet
most people do not give a shit. most judgement is purely surface level. that person will forget by tomorrow. therapists have to like. kind of give a shit. and principals are evil
American principals
Wouldāve disagreed with this until my brother got to sixth grade, and the principal started going after the IEP kids hard because test grades or something.
yeah
american education system singling out the most unqualified person to be principal:
some of my new workout is trying new dances out
so yes I am