that’s no problem
See, that’s what I’ve been trying to tell you
that does not make you mean or “an asshole”
it’s looking down on them
I express it in a way that sounds like an asshole on the surface
When I say “look down on them”, I think I mean a different thing than you hear
and i treat you to higher standards than i do most, apologies
i hear “they’re inferior” and the like
I wish they weren’t that way, and I’m glad I’m not like that, and insofar as I am like that (because I’m not perfect) I seek to avoid and eliminate it. I think the trait they have is not good, and I wish they didn’t have it. I call this “looking down on people”, because I believe the way they are is a worse way to be than the way I am
that is an acceptable explaination that voids my doubts
aren’t we good at this?
Talking! And communicating! Wow!
you can just say benguinedparbecue you know
I tend to describe my own feelings in a way that’s overly harsh because I like to be very polite. Makes me feel like an asshole to believe “this person’s goals aren’t as good as mine”
I almost said something about me choosing to go into medicinal chemistry instead of mathematics
i have figured it out!
it is because i want people to relate to and i have none
i treat people i artifically view as ~vaguely similar to me fairly strictly due to that
which isn’t to be confused to me being short with others for other reasons
Math isn’t something I actively will feel eye-squint about but that’s because I’m a hypocrite + there’s always a chance of applications + it’s a collaborative field that becomes meaningful to other people
i’m short with silviu for comedic effect but we’re quite different, for example of the lattermost
The person I’ve been thinking of through this discussion is a high school friend of mine who went to a very expensive college that their parents paid for in order to study graphic design. And it’s like, I’m told many times that I shouldn’t feel that this is lame to do and I should respect all career paths in life. But I do nonetheless believe this is lame to do
…we have a box of Kraft mac and cheese that… expired? In 2023? How old is that mac and cheese that it not only expired (didn’t know it could do that), but did so two years ago
(tiktok tts voice) Picking Up Bitches In My Solar Car?