i’m surprised how many people get upset at the hosts of the games they play
maybe this is also a time-control difference
I wouldn’t be too surprised if faster time controls would help with that kind of basic pattern recognition, when starting out
i don’t think I’ve hosted a game besides… i can’t remember tom
i don’t think ive hosted a game that someone hasn’t gotten visibly mad at me within their rolecard
(at the time I did puzzles, I primarily played longer time controls, so I would be seeing tactic patterns primarily in tactic puzzles)
my dining table is coming apart and the wood inside is really nice to look at
actually i probably have conformation bias cause i’m not remembering all the games that went off without a hitch
not conformation bias
like the scale
i’m weighing bad things more heavily then good things, mentally
i wonder why my personality is the way it is
i also wonder why i can’t stop trying to say things that i don’t wanna say
i wonder if that’s kinda like what marshal felt like
the um last part
sorry
i’m trying to pinpoint a certain thing that made me so distressed that hasn’t happened before
i think it happening again combined with both my heightened awareness lately and probably actually being non-mentally afflicted sick beforehand made me super super loopy
i’m really not well, i think
but to get better i have to avoid thinking about it
Such is life
philosophically enlightening!
Mew
i wish my body was programmed better for what it would face in surviving
alright moping is boring me
i’m gonna go do something else
seya
Gbye
that something else was staring at my legs
i should just go talk about it to other people