there are people i resented and dont anymore. i dont like them but i dont resent them. it took accepting the emotion to not be overwhelmed by it and thats what let me think clearly.
but sometimes terrible fucked up shit happens and it turns out deciding youre to blame for it happening to you can also make you miserable
its not something you can apply a single process to across the board. all of it is different
I love deep story
Depends, some of us had a lot of blame to accept, while others may have little blame.
I wouldnāt act like the mental process I needed is something everyone would need
Itās never too late to turn back. For what felt like eons, contacting my sister was an unthinkable act to me that i would have gladly taken my own life instead of doing.
We donāt have much to talk about and weāre both obscenely busy so we still donāt talk much, but being able to contact her at all was one of my best accomplishments
thats why i said you cant apply a single process across the board. i feel like we keep agreeing on things here
Iām a bridge builder. I also have 100 counts of arson, but Iām someone who usually will always rebuild relationships.
Although the issue I made was lying to someone who reached out to me. I told them that I was ready to talk to them, and that I didnāt have a problem with them. I knew that theyād never want to discuss my feelings and the pain I felt being around them, so I hid it because I wanted them to keep in contact with me.
You have to be ready, and I was an idiot thinking time heals. In reality it takes time TO HEAL, but time itself canāt do any of the healing for you. 4 years feels like a long time, but since I didnāt start the process of healing, none of the time mattered
Iām dumb, and didnāt realize for a long ass time.
Now I have to start that process for real now, but hey whatever
i like acting like a child. i sadly am not one and have had time to think about Things
This convo happened at a really weird time for me. Yesterday someone from a previous community sent me a message and it really hurt my head. I had such feelings of sadness and anger.
Getting through resentment is tough work. Rachel should accept shit and be happy.
This conversation i think is giving me the courage to speak with my cousin again who i ghosted after he exploded at me last month. I demanded forgiveness from him and swore on my job that I wouldnāt speak with him again until I got it, and I pride myself on my word being my bond (and nothing is more sacred to me than my job) so Iāve been hesitant to speak with him even though I knew he didnāt deserve to be ghosted. He was my best friend for most of last year (and his family graciously let me join them on their annual PR trip in december) and another family member i get advice from pointed out that itās something I did in the heat of the moment so I didnāt really mean it
So tl:dr thank you Rachel youāre a savant on the matter of resentment
I think people usually act cheeky because well itās fun! Though I guess it depends on the mood whenever you want to introduce depthness, like in this situation.
Iām a savant?
If only I was ever strong enough to follow my own words. Iām an emotional child with countless issues
I lost my $100 earbuds, and went through a lot of trauma last night.
If I can be happy rn, all of yall should be
There arenāt people without problems, what matters the most is what youāre going to do about it.
Me and doing stuff about my problems
Iām the greatest talker, and weakest in practice
Nah, I mean Iāve gotten better in a lot of ways. I should give myself come credit
I just hate thereās so much left to work on!
Habit is a definetly something Iād describe as a hell of a drug.
im taking it you dont remember me Rachel right
Forgotten Story